Friday, 30 January 2015

Personal| Thoughts


It's been a sink or swim kind of week. 
Although I breaststroked beautifully for the most part, today I drowned. I struggled to keep afloat and found myself swept under by the tide. 
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't seem to stop it, till all I could do was accept defeat and let the tears - which had been building up for weeks - roll down unapologetically. 
By letting them out, I gained clarity. My sight was no longer clouded by the specks of obligation and guilt; instead for the first time in a long time, I was able to accept defeat and plan an alternative road to take. 
I'm sure this new road will be ridden with crooks and crannies, alleys and dead ends, but with my Creator by my side, I will find refuge and strength. 

           

Saturday, 24 January 2015

OOTD| Dark Cloud



I'm not usually one to let a bad day knock me down, however this week has consisted of 5 consecutive bad days and I'm still struggling to get rid of the dark clouds hovering above my head. 
From an emergency dash to A&E, to a never ending pile of paperwork, this week has been testing to say the least! Nevertheless, I am still thankful for all my blessings and I'm looking forward to a brighter week ahead. 

Cardigan: Dorothy Perkins
Dress: H&M
Tights: Tesco
Boots: Kurt Geiger
So whilst taking today's outfit post, my little man thought it would be funny to get in on the action. I honestly didn't notice till the photos were uploaded onto my computer and it so happens that the ones with him in are the best ones! Lol. 

This outfit was the first thing I could find and I apologise for the nothingness of it. I had to do a mad dash to ToysRUs first thing to buy Nathaniel's birthday presents and it was the easiest thing I could get my hands on. Unintentionally, it matched my mood perfectly! 

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Next week should be stress free hopefully. I'm looking forward to Caribbean cuisine for my bestie's birthday tomorrow and it's the little man's birthday on Monday of course. 
Fitness will be a priority in the week too, I've slacked way too much and I need to get back on the right track. Operation sexy-here-I-come resumes! 
Have a fab week xXx

           

Tuesday, 20 January 2015

OOTD| Bomber


I braved the outdoors again. This occasion was less nerve-wracking and I even managed to crack a few smiles in the process. It was actually hard not to smile when my almost six year old assistant was barking all types of orders at me; demanding that my hand go on my hip; my foot must be slightly lifted and so on. 

I was adamant that I wouldn't jump on the khaki bomber jacket bandwagon just because, but I wasn't strong and caved in when the version I'd been salivating over for months went on sale. I love it and want to wear it forever!
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So I've had to accept that jeans are not for me. I love them but they don't love me. They're always too big around the waist, baggy around the crutch and just an all round odd fit! I'm done. 
Unless anyone can recommend a pair for awkwardly curvy girls?
Suggestions welcome. 

           

Sunday, 18 January 2015

Mummyness| Nathaniel

I still struggle to believe that my firstborn will be six years old in nine days! Where has the time gone? How did this happen? 
I still remember the first moments I held him in my arms. He was tiny and fragile; I was scared I would break him. 
Thinking back, I was a child myself. 21, just out of uni, unemployed and scared, but his little eyes reassured me that everything would be okay. Indeed they were.
He has taught me everything I know about motherhood despite the many trials and errors of his infancy. Together we've laughed, cried, screamed and plodded on. 
I moan at him, pretty much all the time (I'm moany by nature) but he is ever so gracious and understanding. A delightful little human being. 
Generous, kind, thoughtful, funny and inquisitive are some of the words that come to mind. 
He is fiercely protective of his baby sister and looks at her with gentleness and genuine love in his eyes. 
I only hope he knows how grateful I am to him for just being him.



           

Saturday, 17 January 2015

OOTD| cosiest

Jumper dress: H&M
Tights: Tesco
Boots: Asos
Bag: Zara
It's official. I hate being cold. I hate having to wear layers and quite frankly I need Spring to hurry up and come. I guess there really is no pleasing me as I'm not really a fan of Summer either. I just can't wait till I can skip on the black tights when picking my morning outfit. Take this jumper dress for example, although it's warm as hell, I could've done without the tights when I wore it out last weekend, but it was just too damn breezy. It really is the cosiest, laziest and cutest thing ever which could have been a tad sexyish minus the tights. But oh well, I take pictures of what I wear not what I'd like to wear (most of the time anyway).
This jumper dress has been hidden in the depths of my ever expanding wardrobe and I managed to dig it out a few weeks back. The leather elbow patches give it a grandadish feel which I love, and the side slits are a playful addition.
My Zara bag was a Black Friday purchase and it has been my faithful everyday bag ever since. It's the perfect size for my everyday bits and bobs and it's flipping cute too!

I plan to do a lot of outfit recycling this year so apologies in advance. There'll be a lot of shopping my closet and mixing and matching which I'm really looking forward to. My wardrobe really is a cyclone of goodies and I need to start making the most of it. 

           

Sunday, 11 January 2015

Shopping| New Look Shoe Haul

Black sandals: £8
Nude T bar sandals: £8
Black ankle boots: £13
Black heeled gladiator sandals: £10
What a difference 24hrs make! It was only yesterday that I stated that I couldn't even remember the last time I had lusted over a pair of heels and here I am 24hrs later surrounded by my latest high heeled shoe binge! 
In my defence I doubt that any sane fashion loving human being could resist the absolute bargains that New Look had in store today. I initially ventured into my local branch to pick up some studded earrings and as if by fate, all the shoes that had caught my eye at the start of Autumn were on sale and wait for it.... In my size. It was certainly meant to be. 
It would have been insane to pass up on such great deals! Lol.